|
gtdannemiller
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Gabriel
Birthday: 6/13/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: gaming, chess, oldies music, Catholicism, math, teaching, spending time with friends, and just enjoying life.
Expertise: Anything to do with the Catholic faith, Math
Occupation: Future High School Math Teache
Message: message me
AIM:  runelover3
Member Since:
6/24/2006
|
|
| WOW! Here I am back again after a long drop off again, which again I apologize for. I have tons to write and I know even starting now that I will forget a lot of what I want to say, but at least I can take care of some of it.
Well, I figure I will start with college since that is the first significant thing that happened since last post. As I am sure you know this quarter (yes, Ohio State is still on them; I'm indifferent) is over. I am on break for another 2 days, then I get to head back to Columbus again. I complained about my Calculus class on here and how I was failing it, well by some miracle which I definitely attribute to God, I got a C in the class (I almost fell over, but I am soooo thankful; God must really want me to be a math teacher). I got an A in English and a B in Biology. My GPA is approximately pi now and it still is dropping, and I am a bit concerned about it. I am going to try and put forth more effort in college. It is just so hard for me to stay focused on studying with the TV and computer around calling to me.
Now on to break. It feels great to be back home. I've enjoyed being back in good ol' Shelby. It has gone by very quickly. I have had a lot of fun. I've stayed the night over at my cousin's house twice, partied with the family......................GOT MORE TO WRITE-GOT TO RUN FOR NOW!
| | |
| So yesterday and today have been horribly bad days for temptations. Gosh, fighting is never easy. You know it is so much simpler to throw in the towel-but then I realize that that would mean I have not succeeded in I'm trying though-really hard. This is what makes it great to be Catholic-the challenges it has. It's never easy, but every time the win is worth it. And when you lose, it gives you something to work for. Either way there is always more to work and fight for. Battle on!
| | |
| Thanksgiving was awesome. It was great to visit home again, and see
many of my friends and family. Truly, I have much to be thankful for.
Our family parties are legendary, we have to rent a township hall or
use a school to hold them because our family is so big (relatives). I
watched "It's a Wonderful Life" on Friday. Gosh, I love that movie so
much. Such a good message, superbly done and who can deny the power of
James Stewart's acting. Time went by very quickly. Before I knew it it
was time to come back to Columbus for the last two weeks of college
classes this quarter (the second week being finals). In other news I
went to Confession on Saturday-there is nothing like the feeling of
walking out of the church after Confession-NOTHING. On Sunday (a couple
hours before I actually came back) I went to mass at my home parish,
and I was told that if people don't start giving it may be curtains for
it. That is just sad. Even one who made as little as me while I was
there could give some...but people who don't give at all-that just
sickens me. After mass I got to talk to Mark, the parish youth
minister, and that was good. I miss youth group a lot (both helping out
and participating).
Kayla, the girl I feel something special for was there. After mass, I
went up and said hello. About 15 words were spoken the whole time
between the two of us. I guess she didn't want to talk much, and
honestly, I am almost too afraid to say anything lest I say something
wrong. It's still painful. I still get distracted now and then thinking
about her, but I've accepted the fact. I've said it a million times but
I'll say it again; I can't change the way I feel. But hey, I guess
loving someone is making sacrifices, and the sacrifice I am making is
doing what she wishes even if means that I have to hurt.
I know this is off topic, but I need to say it. I HATE seeing people
change (for the worse)-most importantly when it comes to the Catholic
faith. I've seen it happen numerous times. This seems to occur when
people head off to college and I, quite frankly, don't understand it.
Why does a person have to change just because they go to college? I'm
the same person I was when I left, you can ask any of my friends.
College isn't going to manipulate me. Just because other people have
very few if any morals doesn't mean I have to lower mine. I know this
may sound minor to you but the first thing I notice in a person
changing is swearing/cussing-it becomes part of their vocabulary and
becomes frequent. Which brings me to another question-what makes
swearing/cussing so popular? Well, enough about this....for now.
| | |
| Maybe you know what it is like to have all those thoughts going through your head while you are trying to get to sleep. Things that just won't leave you alone. Happens to me every night hence it takes me 15-30 minutes to get to sleep. Oh well, sometimes my greatest thoughts come right before bed.
| | |
|
It’s gets in your skin,
Pulling gently at you till you scream.
You want to hit and punch and kill,
Just to get away from it.
It’s like a poison and cure in one.
It’s as though your heart gets ripped out
Then put back together again.
You don’t know what to do with yourself.
This isn’t meant to be for us.
It’s only for the beautiful ones;
The only possible ones who could deserve to feel this way.
And the sadness kills you.
It’s pain. It’s torture.
It’s never ending.
It’s more than you can handle.
Too much emotion to cope.
You cry, but don’t know why.
You smile secretly to yourself.
The depression hits when you realise,
That it will always be this way.
The pain. The torture.
All for nothing when you realise,
That your love is unrequited.
The self-hatred slowly builds.
The poison in your veins is love.
The ice in your heart is fear.
It won’t let go of you now.
You’re over your head and drowning.
Love will kill us all.
-Temperamental Tiger | | |
|
